Is it ok to cry now. Putting on a brave face all the time is so tiring. I know it’s for the best and its what has to happen but it still hurts! I still can’t stop thinking about him and how much I miss him already!
How does it make me feel when he asks someone else out to dinner?
Like I’m not worth it
Like I’m not good enough
Like I don’t mean anything to him
Why do I get so jealous? Because its not fair to hook up with someone and then not take it any further. I want to go out on a freaking date, I want him to freaking ask me out. I don’t want to just be the girl he hooks up with late at night, I want to be the girl he’s proud to be walking down town with, proud to have hanging off him, proud to be the boyfriend of. I want him to be the man and step up to what I deserve! I deserve to be treated like a princess! I deserve to be made feel like royalty.
How do I tell him this?
,bgsdibgvoiwv ibhwjncvsdhctiowebhcfobinsd. ARRRRG!!! I am trying to find someone to cover my sisters shift at work tomorrow because she cant work it and NO ONE can DO IT! :( Its not like she cant because she just doesnt want to, She’s in freakin’ hospital! I wonder if someone would take on the shift if they new that. If they new that if she wasnt being admitted to hospital tonight she may have taken her life. I should be more concerned about her right now then freakin’ work!! But im not…its so messed up! I really cant do the shift either because it is the last possible day to get all this Sportsfest stuff done before friday. If we dont get it done tomorrow…it doesnt get done and then we will have unfinished stuff for the weekend. We are also getting and sorting through the tshirts.
I have lost count in what day it is in my house sitting duties…but it is my last night! I’m kinda sad. I’ll miss having my own space! Being able to watch what I want when I want. Being able to take as long as I want in the shower. Cooking what I want. Eating what I want. It’s been a good experience. Until next time!
Only have 3 more days of house sitting. That’s means 3 days to use the oven as much as possible before I return home to no working oven. Challenge accepted!!!
‘I wish I knew what it was like to hold your hand’
I don’t wish…I know! And since that day you’ve been on my mind. I don’t know what to think. What’s on your mind? What do you think of me? Would ‘we’ work?
If you never held my hand as a joke, I wouldn’t be so confused right now! But the truth is, I wouldn’t want you to take it back!
Last night I had some friends over! Had a good meal (cooked by yours truly), watched a good movie and had lots of laughs. This morning thought, I had a house to clean. The first time I’ve experienced cleaning a whole house! Challenge complete! I really enjoying being able to have my friends over and do what we wanted, when we wanted. No parents! I’m getting use to being on my own.
I’ve had to raid home for more supplies as I am too lazy to go to the supermarket. What have I become!!
Annnnd it’s boring again! I just want to go out somewhere and DANCE!! But I’m in Narrogin, not many places to go really.
On a brighter note, 1 week down! Only 2 weeks to go!
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